excerpt from my personal journal today

I want to be able to say that I did things right. I will do whatever it
takes to stay alive, to survive, just like Jesus. Sure, there will be impossible
things through our human eyes; we do have our box of sometimes impossible laws
and stupid rules. But until I know for sure that God wants me to specifically
break them, I have to remember that whatever it takes is just this: to put my
trust in God for the impossible.

Jesus did what he had to do to survive when it was not time for him to die.
But when it was time, he did what he had to do to die.

We should be grateful followers.